I have nothing but time now all day long to sit and blog and yet here I am, laying in bed, blogging, at 1:30 am. I don't have much to say but it's been way too long since I blogged and I just thought I'd give you a quick rundown of my life at the present. Before I come back later with actual blog posts about actual exciting events and vacations and happenings this summer with actual--wait for it--pictures. I know, right?!
But not this post. No. This post will be lame. Lots of words, no pictures. Yeah. Blah. But if you have nothing better to be doing with your time right now, keep reading, because you and I both know that there have been no status update changes made since you were on Facebook five minutes ago.
> I just finished Mockingjay. I don't want to ruin anything for those who haven't read it yet, so if you wanna know my opinions about it, and believe me--I got lots--email me and we'll talk. Now I am done laying around reading all day as...
> I have entered Phase 2 of being a stay-at-home-mom: both kids at school all day, every day. For those of you who have heard me talk about it (sing giddily about it?) and are ready to punch me in the face, please believe me that I'm not trying to rub it in. I've just, well, anticipated this day for 9 years and I'm not gonna feel bad about it. I worked hard, paid my dues, sacrificed naps and showers and any sense of free time and it. was. hard. The hardest thing I've ever done. (yes, I'm aware it will get harder at some point.) But for right now can I just enjoy it? Enjoy this break that's been given me? I've earned it, and doggonnit I'm gonna enjoy it and not feel guilty about it! I am taking full advantage of this opportunity by...
> Walking each morning. I haven't exercised regularly in years and it feels fantastic! I walk with a good friend of mine and we talk and talk and I barely notice my blistering toes or bursting lungs as we go up the hill...I love every second of it. Finally, I am getting my body healthy, as per the advice of...
> My new neurologist. Wow. Polar opposite experience from the last one. I left his office hopeful, encouraged, and highly optimistic. He told me basically what I had already guessed about my body, specifically my head/migraines. To hear a doctor confirm what I already believed to be true was, well, a little euphoric. He put me on a preventative drug to stop the headaches before they start and gave me an abortive drug to stop a migraine in its tracks if I need to. But more importantly, he said I need to get healthy, lose the weight, and become physically active. AND he confirmed that I absolutely need to go to physical therapy because my neck is MESSED UP and is probably 80% of the cause of my headaches. Stupid stress. So, with my headaches under control, I should finally be able to...
> Write my book. Aaaggghhh!!! What began as one of the most exciting, wonderful moments of my life has since turned into stress, panic, doubt, and self-doubt. It started with an offer from my amazing cousin whom I absolutely adore who works at a publishing company. Together with her boss, they offered me a contract with them if I could have my finished manuscript to them by the end of the year, along with a little royalties advance. (!!!) I actually yelped when I read the offer. It is my lifelong dream come true. I'm not kidding. And it would work so perfectly! With both kids at school all day I had my days available to do nothing but write, write, write. But then reality hit. I began to wonder if I actually could finish my book in four months. Wonder turned to doubt, doubt turned to disbelief, disbelief turned to sheer panic. And there's only one way I cope with panic, and that is shut-down mode. Aaarrrggghhh!!!!! So frustrated. But I WILL not let this slip away from me. I'd be insane if I did and I'd hate myself forever. I WILL do this. I have to. (positive, motivational thoughts my way please!) So I've been avoiding my book and getting out my creative juices elsewhere...
> Cake Decorating classes! As of Thursday I am a Wilton Cake Decorating Courses graduate! I am all done, and it's completely bittersweet. On the one hand, I have learned all that they have to teach me until I can take some advanced classes. On the other hand, I will miss the classes! And I really thought I'd feel more qualified to start charging people but...no way. So not there yet. So if you need a cake for any reason, please let me know. I really need the practice but I just can't charge anyone yet. If you want a good cake for free and are understanding about the fact that it's a learning cake for me and won't be perfect, I'm your girl! Seriously! I need the practice!
I think that's about it for now. Again, it's 2:00 in the morning. I don't why I do this. Something's wrong with me, seriously. It'll be fun to see in the morning if this all made as much sense as it does in my brain right now. Soon I will do my summer recap post with pictures, and put pics of my cakes on here too.
And now I'm out.
