Thursday, September 2, 2010

Wazzz Up...with me

I have nothing but time now all day long to sit and blog and yet here I am, laying in bed, blogging, at 1:30 am. I don't have much to say but it's been way too long since I blogged and I just thought I'd give you a quick rundown of my life at the present. Before I come back later with actual blog posts about actual exciting events and vacations and happenings this summer with actual--wait for it--pictures. I know, right?!

But not this post. No. This post will be lame. Lots of words, no pictures. Yeah. Blah. But if you have nothing better to be doing with your time right now, keep reading, because you and I both know that there have been no status update changes made since you were on Facebook five minutes ago.

> I just finished Mockingjay. I don't want to ruin anything for those who haven't read it yet, so if you wanna know my opinions about it, and believe me--I got lots--email me and we'll talk. Now I am done laying around reading all day as...

> I have entered Phase 2 of being a stay-at-home-mom: both kids at school all day, every day. For those of you who have heard me talk about it (sing giddily about it?) and are ready to punch me in the face, please believe me that I'm not trying to rub it in. I've just, well, anticipated this day for 9 years and I'm not gonna feel bad about it. I worked hard, paid my dues, sacrificed naps and showers and any sense of free time and it. was. hard. The hardest thing I've ever done. (yes, I'm aware it will get harder at some point.) But for right now can I just enjoy it? Enjoy this break that's been given me? I've earned it, and doggonnit I'm gonna enjoy it and not feel guilty about it! I am taking full advantage of this opportunity by...

> Walking each morning. I haven't exercised regularly in years and it feels fantastic! I walk with a good friend of mine and we talk and talk and I barely notice my blistering toes or bursting lungs as we go up the hill...I love every second of it. Finally, I am getting my body healthy, as per the advice of...

> My new neurologist. Wow. Polar opposite experience from the last one. I left his office hopeful, encouraged, and highly optimistic. He told me basically what I had already guessed about my body, specifically my head/migraines. To hear a doctor confirm what I already believed to be true was, well, a little euphoric. He put me on a preventative drug to stop the headaches before they start and gave me an abortive drug to stop a migraine in its tracks if I need to. But more importantly, he said I need to get healthy, lose the weight, and become physically active. AND he confirmed that I absolutely need to go to physical therapy because my neck is MESSED UP and is probably 80% of the cause of my headaches. Stupid stress. So, with my headaches under control, I should finally be able to...

> Write my book. Aaaggghhh!!! What began as one of the most exciting, wonderful moments of my life has since turned into stress, panic, doubt, and self-doubt. It started with an offer from my amazing cousin whom I absolutely adore who works at a publishing company. Together with her boss, they offered me a contract with them if I could have my finished manuscript to them by the end of the year, along with a little royalties advance. (!!!) I actually yelped when I read the offer. It is my lifelong dream come true. I'm not kidding. And it would work so perfectly! With both kids at school all day I had my days available to do nothing but write, write, write. But then reality hit. I began to wonder if I actually could finish my book in four months. Wonder turned to doubt, doubt turned to disbelief, disbelief turned to sheer panic. And there's only one way I cope with panic, and that is shut-down mode. Aaarrrggghhh!!!!! So frustrated. But I WILL not let this slip away from me. I'd be insane if I did and I'd hate myself forever. I WILL do this. I have to. (positive, motivational thoughts my way please!) So I've been avoiding my book and getting out my creative juices elsewhere...

> Cake Decorating classes! As of Thursday I am a Wilton Cake Decorating Courses graduate! I am all done, and it's completely bittersweet. On the one hand, I have learned all that they have to teach me until I can take some advanced classes. On the other hand, I will miss the classes! And I really thought I'd feel more qualified to start charging people but...no way. So not there yet. So if you need a cake for any reason, please let me know. I really need the practice but I just can't charge anyone yet. If you want a good cake for free and are understanding about the fact that it's a learning cake for me and won't be perfect, I'm your girl! Seriously! I need the practice!

I think that's about it for now. Again, it's 2:00 in the morning. I don't why I do this. Something's wrong with me, seriously. It'll be fun to see in the morning if this all made as much sense as it does in my brain right now. Soon I will do my summer recap post with pictures, and put pics of my cakes on here too.

And now I'm out.

11 comments:

Dallin and Ashley said...

Alicia, Jen told me about your deal and I was sooo excited! She told me the book is awesome so far, so I can't wait to read the final product. You will do amazing, you're a fantastic writer. And I am so happy you and your dr were able to figure out the cause of your migraines. So awesome. Hope life continues to go well!!

Alison said...

Alicia, I am totally stoked by all that! You can do it! And if you need a push forward just call me! I hate when people end evey sentence with an exclamation point! But I did it!

melissa mae said...

Please please please keep it up with your book! I am so envious of you (in a good way, of course). If I had the opportunity to possibly publish my book, I would jump on it. I'm so excited for you!

Amy J. said...

Ummmm be careful what you ask for...Here ya go:
Anderson's B-day: Sep 14 He loves skateboarding and music

Sydney's B-day: Sep 22 She loves writing and reading

Bransons B-day: Nov 5 He LOVES LOVES LOVES Dora and Diego,and Lightening McQueen and Mater His third favorite is Elmo

My B-day: Nov 6 I love reading and photography and scrapbooking and pretty cakes especially for my birthday cause I never get a cake for my birthday!

Girl you better get writing!!!! You can totally do it. You know you can.

dandee said...
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dandee said...

I will hate you forever too if you don't finish! (just kidding!) But I KNOW you can do this! You are so talented and I feel like the world would be missing out if they (me included!) didn't get to read your novel! WRITE, WRITE, WRITE!

dandee said...

p.s. you don't really need an excuse to bring me a cake. I don't care how it's decorated, as long as it's pretty + it tastes good.

Noelle said...

this was such a fun post to read. and mockingjay - yes, let's talk.
have you talked to my sister stephanie about her neck? she has migraines like yours and her brain stem is smashing into her spine. she just found out about it this year. i'm so glad you found a doctor that you feel comfortable with.
yeah for walking with a friend!

Rachael said...

If you need me to, I would be willing to walk to your house every Monday thru Friday and bang on your door, and remind you to start writing. You are totally underestimating yourself in the cake department. You have mad skillz. Can't wait for the pictures....And congrats on the walking, I have been hoping to do the same thing, just haven't gotten around to it...

Shayla said...

I seriously can't stop thinking about this book of yours. I need to get my hands on it. Really. I would be a stress case about it, too. All good things make you stress, right? :) I want a cake! I love cake! I make really yummy cakes, but they look terrible! Something about not having an undo button every time I mess up... I still have not read Mockingjay or I would have emailed you already! Really?! Do I have to wait for the library every time a book comes out? I know you want to loan me your copy. Walking? Really? I'm seriously jealous that you have a different friend than me to walk with. I miss that. So, so, so glad you like your new doctor. It's awesome when that happens. Especially since it seems to be so rare. I hope you find relief and feel better in big ways. Keep blogging!!

Washington Rimmasch Family said...

I'm so gald you found a good doctor. I have seen you out walking and I was wishing I had the energy to take a walk myself, but I don't ... Cakes, book writing really? Thats it I'm officailly in awe. You are so talented you can do anything you want remember Wakadoo zoo? you even rocked at that!