Sunday, November 14, 2010

Still Here

So I have a goal to blog more. I miss it. It used to be such a big part of my life and I'm sad that I've let it slip by the wayside, along with many other things that used to be important to me. During this last big "dip" I've allowed myself to slip further and further into my comfort zone, letting things go, shutting myself up into my turtle shell and ignoring things that involve human interaction and expressing myself. Well, I'm working on ditching the shell and putting myself out there more like I used to. I'm working on healing, and getting back to the Alicia I used to be. My blog is an important step, to talk about the things that are still here, still important to me, defining my life at this point in time.

1.5 months. That's it. That's all I have left to finish my novel. Can you believe it? I can't. But I'm so excited. To think that in a month and a half I could be signing a contract, handing over my beloved manuscript to be published to the world, for you and everyone else to read. Am I nervous? A little, but nowhere near as much as I am excited. Although I haven't made as much progress over the last few months as I would have liked, I'm raring to finish this bad boy. I'm at a crucial part in the story right now, maybe the part I'm most excited about writing--the falling in love part, which leads to the twist part, the conflict part, and the dramatic ending part. Eek! I can hardly contain myself. I really hope you all love reading it as much as I love writing it. This story is so much a part of me.

Progress on my headaches is not so much progressing. I guess sometimes in order to find the solution you have to eliminate the non-solutions and things might get worse before they get better. The prescription the neuro put me on was a great diet pill, but a joke of a pain pill. Instead of preventing migraines as it was supposed to do, it created pressure in my forehead so intense it actually brought migraines on. Needless to say I stopped taking it. I am still plugging away at physical therapy, which rocks my world--while I'm there. 15 minute head/neck massages twice a week? Yes please! But I leave every single time with a headache, which turns into an excruciating migraine by that night. Pretty much the only time I get those really bad ones now are the days I go to P.T. Hmmm. Something wrong with this picture? Supposedly I should get used to it in time, but how many more times can I willingly go in there, knowing I'm in for a crapload of pain that night? I have to say, not many. Sigh.

Other than that not much to report. I promise to be back soon, blogging again. I can't promise I'll have anything interesting to say, but maybe you'll wanna read it anyway.

7 comments:

Shayla said...

I was so excited to see a post from you in my reader tonight! I have missed reading your blog. I'm sorry I haven't been there to help push you out of your "dip"...I'm not sure why we have to go through these things at the same time, but there you go. I'm here at home avoiding human interaction and any social situations, as well...but I'm always thinking about you and hoping it's better over at your place. Can't. Wait. to read that novel! No pressure. Seriously, no pressure. :) Sorry about the headaches. I swear it's always one step forward and two steps back. Miss you!

Brenda said...

I am still out here reading and not commenting. Miss hearing from you more.

a {girl} in a {gorilla} suit said...

we missed YOU! lots and lots. i hope you get better SOON! let me know if you need some chocolate (cause, remember? it cures EVERYTHING!) and i'd be more than happy to bring some by!

tharker said...

I'm so excited for you to finish your book!!

ashley said...

I've missed your posts, they're always so "real". Just one of the many things I love about your writing. Your a real person, with real struggles, and it's actually refreshing to read; I think I read too many blogs of people who live in fantasy-lands and it honestly just frustrates me. Sometimes I feel like I'm living under the same turtle shell, with my own problems, and could shut myself out from the world! I suppose that's my fault though, and I need to just quit reading those blogs :) But can I just say, I can't believe you are getting close to finishing your book! I. can't. wait! You'll have to keep us updated on the whole process. What an exciting time for you! As for the headaches, I really hope the P.T. starts to help. Good luck!

{ bRee } said...

I am excited about your novel! So excited! Sorry to hear about the rough time with your headaches, that is no fun :(

Lisa said...

Alicia, I can't wait to read your book! I just know it will be brilliant :)