Monday, February 13, 2012

Reality Check

Now that my blog is private I feel safer, more secure, about what I can and want to say here. It's a nice feeling after the last few weeks of growing more and more exposed online. I have to laugh at my one New Years Resolution that I truly did have the best intentions of carrying out: blogging more. In a way, I guess, I have been. Just not here, not on this blog. How could I have known that a few weeks after making that resolution that my life would shift in a new direction (ie phase 2 of my publishing journey) forcing my focus to be dedicated almost entirely to my new Internet home (ie my book website) and basically, the online world in general. Such a huge percentage of my days are spent on my laptop, contacting, connecting, networking. Business, business, business. But what a business it is. This is my business now. I am, by trade, a writer. An author. A novelist. All of the above. And it feels akin to standing on the highest peak of a very tall mountain. I did it. I made it. My book isn't printed yet, but it's being printed as we speak and one day in the very near future I will receive a package on my doorstep--a box. And it will be full of my books. My book. My precious piece of me that I dug from somewhere deep in my gut and laid out in word form. A fraction of my soul.

And because of this thing I've created, my life is changing. Every day, I can feel it. Undoubtedly one of the most exciting, anticipating times of my life, and it's only going to change more. I already find myself struggling to stay grounded to reality, to break away from this high I'm riding to clean my house, remind my children and husband why I'm here and that I love them more than words can say. And then I read yet another 4 star review from someone who fell just as in love with my Jude and Olivia as I did, who hurt when she hurt, who cried tears of joy when she did, who fell in love with Jude as Olivia did and my dream is fulfilled. I'm right back up there, up in the clouds, riding that high. This was my dream, my goal, when I started this journey: to have people--even one person, but hopefully the world--love my story as much as I do. I could quit and walk away right now, before the first royalty check ever comes in, and die happy.

I'm a writer, and a mother, and a wife, except not in that order. And that is all I want to be.

5 comments:

NaDell said...

I'm so excited to read your book! It's so thrilling to think about!

Washington Rimmasch Family said...

Yay! I am so happy for you :) I can't wait to read it I'm sure it will be amazing. Congrats on making the climb and reaching the top now take a second and let the veiw just soak into your soul so you can look back on forever.

Washington Rimmasch Family said...

*back on it forever*
-typo queen thats me :)

Marilyn said...

Alicia, I have to admit, private blogs are kind of hard for me to follow because I forget to check them :/ Though, I totally understand why you need to do this. I will definitely check in and catch up because your writing pulls me in!!

Which brings me to... Gosh, I can't wait to read this book. Reading the reviews people have been writing really make it harder for me to wait :)

NaDell Ransom said...

Dude, it's like you are busy writing or something. It's just not here. I miss your blogs (but know you are busy.)
I saw your book on a friend's entry table yesterday and had to ask her how she liked it. She did! (Of course!)